I'm So in Love. Not just a pimply Teenage Crush

Today I feel inspired...
If I had my way I would be walking through a land with candy coloured clouds, flourescent green grassy hills and where rose petals were boats.  I would walk through the land hand and hand with lover, Jesus and talk about how the world works and where it began.  We would find a quiet and lovely spot near a shady tree but in the sun because I prefer life in the Sun.  Eating Fish n Chips Jesus would teach me the ways of life and love and how to love; something I am not that good at yet, though I do try.  He would look at me with unconditional love in His eyes and we would whisper "sweet nothings" as only we could.  I am my beloved's and He is mine.  He would show me that I am made for Him and that His love would be the only thing I would every need. 

I would imagine Jesus with a guitar, a hippy of sorts, singing folk songs about the love He has for me.  I could see Him singing from His heart and with all that He is showing how much His love extends, to me, to the ends of the Earth.  He would sing like the songs were just for me and He would look into my eyes and I would fall into the pools of eternity that lived inside them.  I am my beloved's and He is mine.

Jesus is more than just a friend of mine.  I am in love with Him.  I live for each moment I have with Him.  I seek more of His love for me so I can love Him back. 
This is not just a pimply teenage crush. It's for life!

Light Be

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Everyone or at least most people know of the Bible verse Genesis 1:3 'And God said "Let there be light", and there was light.'  Yes there is light and we are surrounded by light and when we hang with God we have light in us.  I was 2 the first time I asked "Jesus into my heart."  All I knew was there He was good and that He died so that we could live and I believed that this was good. So I guess that's the day many people would say I was a Christian and Light lived in me.

This was all good and great and Godly but did I really understand?  That is the question noone can answer.  I know though that God honoured the longing I had to have goodness in my life and there were many times I felt and heard him while I grew up.  Light was and is my friend.



Many of us can relate to times in their lives they have let the shadows in or they seemed to take over.  I have many such times and as the shadows came I would start to give into them. Why?  I didn't actually believe I had light IN me.  I know I am not the only one that at times have let the shadows take over and there are years in my life sometimes years at a time that I lived in the shadows believing the light was far away as I believed the lie that light was for others and not for me.

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 Luke 11:34
Your eye is the lamp of your body; when your eye ( your conscience) is sound and fulfilling its office, your whole body is full of light; but when it is not sound and is not fulfilling its office, your body is full of darkness.

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I didn't believe in the light that lived in me and therefore the light was darkness, it no longer existed as God does not force His agenda onto you.  Luke 11:35 says Be careful, therefore that the light in you is not darkness.  I was living still in darkness!

If we don't come to God and ask Him to live in us realising that as Christ died so does our old selves we actually stay unbelievers and living in darkness!  We are light, when we ask God to take over we become new people, we no longer have darkness!!! When we realise that we can command the shadows in our lives to leave!  GOOD GOD!




It's like it says in Isaiah 9:2-3

Those who walked in the dark
   have seen a bright light.
   And it shines upon everyone
   who lives in the land
   of darkest shadows.
Our LORD, you have made
   your nation stronger.
   Because of you, its people
   are glad and celebrate
   like workers at harvest time
   or like soldiers dividing up
   what they have taken.
When we claim what is rightfully ours, when 'wake up' and realise we no longer need to live in the land of the darkest shadows we can take the land and cause it to light up!  Imagine living like that! Walking into dark places and not needing a torch or walking into a dodgy situation and bringing everyone to their knees and drawing them into the light!  Isn't that what God intended for us?  How else do we pray for the sick and see them recover?  It's simply chasing the shadows away!

x LIGHT BE x

What is in a name?

Today I want to talk about names, it's one of my "things" that I love and feel passionate about.  I ferociously disagree with the quote by Shakespeare 

"What's in a name? That which we call a rose

By any other name would smell as sweet."

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I believe a name can make or break a person.  For example would you call your child Ugly Duckling?  Or Fatso?  I wouldn't think so. But why do we still insist on calling our children things that have no meaning to us or have terrible meanings or history to them.  Would you call your child Stalin?

Leah for instance may be a fairly pretty name but it's meaning is Weary or tired.  In the Bible she was the ugly sister with bad eyes that Jacob got tricked into marrying!  Although she ended up bearing many children for him would you call your child Leah based on that?  Esau in the Bible was named because of his red hairy body but he was also weak and sold his birthright to his brother Jacob as he never really saw his worth.  Would you run out and be eager to call your child Esau?

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Here are some beautiful names with wonderful meanings. (green unisex, blue boy, pink girl)

Alexis - Defender

Eliada - God knew

Emmanuel - God is with us

Ella - Bright light, torch bearer

Hallelya - Glory to God          

                                             

Jed- God's beloved

Kei - Joyful, One's glory

Molly - derived from Mary meaning: wished for child.                        

Noah - Rest, comfort

Stephane - crown of glory

Toby - God is good

Zachary - The Lord remembers

These a just a little handful of names that I thought some may like with great meanings.  A name is important for a person and can shape who they are.  There are so many stories of people with the same name have similar personalities and even events in their lives!  What's in a name?  Well I call my God Abba, Yaweh, Jehovah His son Jesus or Jeshua but I would never call them Jacob (deceiver)!

Whats the Story?

I thought I would start writing a series on my life....sound boring?  READ ON cos it ain't.

Born 1982 in Hamilton New Zealand, I was anything but the usual second child in a lower middle class family.  My older brother, Autistic and me I was born with health problems that ended being a huge part of my life.  My mother who was only 26 and a nurse knew that there was something wrong, but the doctors had a hard time believing.  I cried most of the time and seemed to be in pain.  My head was bigger was healthy and growing pretty rapidly, but after 4 months of pain and the doctors realised my mother was right, something was wrong.  I was diagnosed with Hydrocephalus, a condition that means the cerbral spinal fluid (spine and brain fluid), could not flow away from the brain and be absorbed by my body, I also produced 5x the normal daily amount of fluid so there were two reasons to take action. The doctors operated on my and fitted my brain with a shunt (a tube with valves that allow the fluid to flow to a cavity by my heart.)  Normally this would be most of the story, most people with Hydrocephalus has very few problems with their shunts and only need changes when it needs to be lengthened.  Unfortunately this was not my story.  I had major problems with my shunt....Bored yet? 

...I didn't think so.

So when my shunt got placed it took a while before my body adjusted and I spent that time in Hospital.  My poor mother and father had Matthew to think too.  He was not only Autistic but had eye problems, cerebral palsy and number of other health issues.  When I was at home my big brother loved to look after to me and I doned the nicked name Snowy or Snowball with my white hair.  He helped Mum change my nappies and if I had nappy rash he would slather nappy cream on my bottom.  He wanted to be the best big brother ever....

When I was 2 1/2 my little brother was born, Daniel.  He also had Hydrocephalus and if the doctors didn't believe Mum before they certainly didn't this time even more as Hydro (for short) is not hereditary OR genetic.....

To be continued....