Promises, truth, being real.

When is it enough? Do you wait until the very breaking point of your frustration before you cry out to Abba Father for your breakthrough?? As I lay in my bed weeping, realising the best year of my life is coming to a close, I realised also that I feel like I have not run towards everything that I could have to acheive the greatness that was potentially mine. Not that I will not get it, but as I grappled with the fearful empty, I realised I was agreeing with a lie. Then I realised what had transpired in the past few weeks. Not only have I had some of my deepest breakthroughs, of which I have no words for, but I have also had such horrible attacks. I became aware of my swollen throbbing foot and ankle, from the sprain I endured during Missions in Tijuana. I thought of my family and the breakthrough I was still praying for them, I tearfully prayed for finances and breakthrough for my family with that. I cried out to God that if (or when) I get into 2nd year that it would not be a financial burden for my Mother as much as it has been this year. I told Abba that I know He is my provider but that I didn't want to see another struggle financially for my parents, that I want to see a miracle, I told Him that I was tired of fighting for what was supposed to be already mine. He has promised that He will provide, heal body and soul, concur any fears, release Peace that Passes understanding. I thought of the verse that says "No weapon formed against you will prosper." Being that not the best with remembering scripture's references, I searched for it. Up comes this passage, and I am reminded of what God has started in me this year: Isaiah 54:17 The Message (MSG) 11-17"Afflicted city, storm-battered, unpitied: I'm about to rebuild you with stones of turquoise, Lay your foundations with sapphires, construct your towers with rubies, Your gates with jewels, and all your walls with precious stones. All your children will have God for their teacher— what a mentor for your children! You'll be built solid, grounded in righteousness, far from any trouble—nothing to fear! far from terror—it won't even come close! If anyone attacks you, don't for a moment suppose that I sent them, And if any should attack, nothing will come of it. I create the blacksmith who fires up his forge and makes a weapon designed to kill. I also create the destroyer— but no weapon that can hurt you has ever been forged. Any accuser who takes you to court will be dismissed as a liar. This is what God's servants can expect. I'll see to it that everything works out for the best." God's Decree. I believe that this is what God has been doing in me this year, building a foundation, rebuilding me so that I an solid and grounded in righteousness. What I need to keep my eyes on is His promises. He has started this good work, He will be faithful to finish it: Philippians 1:6 Amplified Bible (AMP) 6And I am convinced and sure of this very thing, that He Who began a good work in you will continue until the day of Jesus Christ [right up to the time of His return], developing [that good work] and perfecting and bringing it to full completion in you. This is what I believe. I may not feel it yet, but I will keep reminding myself of this promise and of what He has done.