You can't take away my Soul

My friend Sam is in a band and one of their songs is titled "I've got soul".  Part of the lyrics are you can't take away my soul.  This got me to thinking about how often things in our life has come and knocked us around a bit making dents in our spirit and emotions.  Let noone try and tear you down.  The only person that owns your sould should be the Lord.  He is the maker and the creator of all things.  It hurts me and tears me apart to see people letting others take control of who they are and therefore letting go of their souls purpose. 

You have Soul~

Those who come and try and destroy you should be loved and not hated, given peace in return not destroyed.  They are usually the ones that hurt the most and need people to love them more. 

Please do not necessarily draw them closer into your circle or expose your heart to their evil ways or hurtful words but keep them at arms length.  The best way is to be friendly and wish them well but not be friends with them.  When God told us to love one another He did not mean to let everyone into your heart, this will lead to hurt and destruction.  The only person who has any rights over your heart is God.  Seek FIRST the kingdom of God and everything else will come. 

Photo by sayra on deviantart

You are not Plan B!

 You are not plan B.  Such a simple sentence.  I have never thought about it before but when one of my Pastors said it last night at church I was blown away by.  I didn't realise that I believed that I was not God's first plan.  He made me the way I am and knowing exactly how I would make decisions and what would happen in my life.  He knows who I am in every detail. That part was not new to me but when it was put in simple terms.  I am God's Plan A....I realised that God isn't disappointed in me at all that he knows me and he loves me and I am capable to make great decisions and become an amazing person.  I am who I am because I am meant to be that way. If there was no me there would be a gap in the universe.  That goes for everyone of us!!!

Everyone of us was created for a purpose toward Gods kingdom.  Something I am not too good at is letting myself believe I am enough for God.  This is a lie.  God loves us unconditionally and no matter how much we do things against Him he is there ready for us so that he can love us more.

Don't worry about what you need to do to carry out God's purpose for you cos the desires of your heart the things that you are passionate about are things God has made you for.  JUST GO!!!!! Take the first step toward what you know you should do deep down and God will be there ready to hold your hand all the way.

God bless xxxx

A Shout out to an AMAZING woman!

Annie Blackberry Jewellery

 These earrings are so cute!  What a lovely, unique and sweet pair!

A great range of jewellery that can be custom made with awesome prices and unique looks.  I love her stuff and have a few pieces of it myself. Anna Killick is the creator and she is one awesome woman.  She is loving, caring, beautiful and Godly.  Have a look  at her blog and order a few pieces for Christmas...its worth it!

The little limeric on this piece was written by Anna herself.  I love this necklace and want it myself.

Ava Living | Lower Level Hall by Barb Solem

Ava Living | Lower Level Hall by Barb Solem


I love this design it's so beautiful it reminds me of royalty and the Castle courts.  I would love a house with this in it one day! 

The importance of Song

Singing is not just about ability or notes, but a metaphor for life.  There are the blues, cheerful pop, and songs of worship.  I have often told myself to sing a new song.  This is referring to the transformation of my mind to better things.  There are many scriptures in the Bible about singing a new song.  Here are a handful:

Psalm 33v3 Sing to Him a new song play skillfully and shout for joy.

Psalm 98v1 Sing to the Lord a new song, for he has done marvelous things; His right hand and His holy arm have worked salvation for all.

Isaiah 42v10 Sing to the Lord a new song, his praise from the ends of the earth.

There is an awesome blog this week that I would love to share: Check out I am a tree

Learning to Love

I had an encounter with Love last night.  I learned to love, something that is easier said than done.  I learned to say that I forgive myself and others that have done wrong to me.  This sounds so easy when I am writing it here but I am telling you it's definately not.  It actually took me about 10 mins to even be able to utter the words that I forgive myself.  For what you ask?  For everything that has gone wrong in my life, I blamed myself.  Love is not just something that we do for others, but to be able to love others the very way we want to we must first love ourselves.

Love Birds Grow on Time

Give Love a Hand

I never thought that love needed anything. I guess it doesn't if you think about God being love but if you take a step back and look from the other side of the square, faith without works is dead so what is love without works? Love is patient, kind, not easily angered, doesn't boast, and these are all verbs, so love is ACTION. If you don't action love how do those who don't know about love obtain it?

Hope

A guitar used to accompany this worship singers

Its a funny thing hope.  But if I could say one thing about it, its in the worship we sing to our loving Father.  As I stand in my row or at the front of church singing Holy Holy Holy is our Lord God Almighty who was and is and is to come.  This gives me hope.  Every step of everyday, these words give me hope. 
Communian is a symbol of the hope that Jesus Christ gave us.  As we sip of the grape juice and eat of the bread its a reminder of our hope that is in him.  As Jesus died on that cross He said.  It is finished.  This means the war has been won for us, that all the things we face in our life God has already taken care of it, if that doesn't give us hope what would?!  We need to know that we can let everything go and it will be taken to care of, just let it GO!!!

Being Sick

Muffy my cat makes me happy :D

I have gone on a lot about being sick, its a daily struggle.  But there are few things I can do to keep going, seek the Lord, pray, listen to music, and keep my sense of humour and my passion of photography.  Here are a few quotes that I like have fun reading them! 

There is no medicine like hope, no incentive so great, and no tonics so powerful as expectation of something better tomorrow. -O. Swett Marden

A sense of humor can help you overlook the unattractive, tolerate the unpleasant, cope with the unexpected, and smile through the unbearable. -Moshe Waldoks

Life is a tragedy when seen in close-up, but a comedy in the long run. -Charles Chaplin

Don't deny the diagnosis; try to defy the verdict. -Norman Cousins

We are all here for a spell. Get all the good laughs you can. -Will Rogers

The most wasted day of all is that on which we have not laughed. -Sebastian Comfort

Provers 13v12

Hope deferred makes the heart sick,       
but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.

How do you react? A few Questions.

What happens when you get it wrong?  Doesn't seem like that much of a big deal does it?  Be honest when you get something wrong do you actually get upset or do you move on? 

What do you do if you hurt someone's feelings? Do you apoligise?  Do you defend yourself?  Do you take it hard or let it go?  Do you cry? 

I have done things the wrong way so many times, I think we all have but how many times have you taken it to heart or have you just moved on not taking it on?  Since I have a Brain Injury I have been unable to express myself they way that I would like to others, it seems that it all comes out the wrong way.  I have met and talked to many people with my disorder who have had many broken marriages, relationships and friendships.  The trick is to be open about how hard it is to express yourself successfully but only to those you really admire.  Don't forget though:  Proverbs 4v23 Guard your heart above all else,
      for it determines the course of your life.

Peace and love is not just the hippy way 

The Word is Love

The true meaning of love is apparent when you hit a hard place in your life.  The wonder and beauty of this love is so unique that it can't be replicated.  It's important to know that God is love so it is in these low moments that God becomes more real and far more tangible to us.  You do not need to hit rock bottom to get this tangiblity of God but since we are all human and tend to hold too much pride it can take a few hard knocks to get to the place where we can accept the avaiblibility of God and love.  Anyone that has been truely rock bottom will know that there are many things that we could have done better, decisions that we could have made to prevent the fall of our life.
Another point to make is that God is the Word and God is Love therefore the Word of God is love ... the Word is Love.
How many times have we been told to read the the Bible? How many times has it been a chore to?  We must know that reading the Bible is important, not just because it informs us of the ways of our God, but because it is Love.
The world needs love, the word needs the Word and the world needs God these are all the same thing.  Oh how the world would be transformed if everyone took that as a need as apposed to 'just a belief'.

Serious Overload and Supernatural Sweets

So I have been to a conference last weekend.  I now understand that I need to live my life according to what God wants of me.  Ok I knew that before but now I super know. I spent the past two weeks looking at my life through the haze of the glory.  Someone I know said to me that I was so in the spirit that I could be of no earthly use.  What is that?  How could God take you to a place that you are of no earthly use?
I thought about it for a while.  My initial response was, SHUT UP!!!  But when I thought about it I knew she was telling the truth.  No this does not mean I truely agree with what she was saying straight up but I know that when I am drunk in the spirit I scare people.


One thing I know that I can be a total goof sometimes anyway tho.

I am totally blown away with the things I have been doing in the last while tho.  I had a vision while I was in the spirit and I saw a beautiful sunset but not from the usual standpoint but I was actually in the sky itself.  I looked to my right then to my left and I found that my arms were wings like a dove, white and beautiful.  I had the sensation of flight and I felt a strong feeling of love in my heart, a deep warmth that I cannot put into words.  As I looked around my church I could see a radiation of light around some people and I felt such a strong love for everyone.  I hugged many people.

For the first time in my life I realised how friendship should be, its all because of LOVE.

My new friendships have blessed me so much.    I never knew God's love as much I as do now.  There are people in my life that truely care about me!! Nothing can describe it.

Seasons turn

Seasons pass before us, a miracle of divine change.  His eyes look upon us and keep track of our steps; a way to be sure we are loved by our maker.  Though the leaves turn colour, when the clouds block the sun; God's love is forever true to us.  
Res in His presence, relax in His sweet peace.
God is love, His word speaks life.  
Easy is his yoke to carry, His burden is light.
Pray to your Dad daily, thank the days of your life.  It's hope peace, faith and love God's spirit a sweet nectar.  Taste it and see it's goodness, His spirit lives in its juices.  
Tak care of yourself, rest back and grab hold.  God's love is neverending perfection; it's there forever long.
Love the gift of God's grace, a special package deal.

Lessons I am learning.

There is much to be said about the times in your life that are difficult.  There are times you think that it might just be impossible to breath, to even open your eyes or get out of bed.  Although this is the worst of times it is also the best just like Charles Dickons said.  It is in these times that we are shaped and molded, if we let ourselves.  Its like a blacksmith and his horse shoe, it must first go into the hottest of furnaces before it can be perfected and shaped for the purpose that it has.
I am not saying I enjoy these moments, quite the contrary, I moan and whinge.  At the end of the day though I know that there is God. 
One amazing experience I had of late:  I was worshipping God in church as usual but this time was different, I sensed a deeper belief in what I was singing; more than before.  The "yummy" sense of God was on me so gentle as if I moved the wrong way it would disappear, it was truely delicate.  I lay on the ground as God took me into a light sleep.  Then as my pastor prayed for me and told me he loved me God showed me that he was letting me fly. I looked to my right and left and both of my arms were transformed into huge white feathered wings.  I was flying. 

Yes life can be tough but if we really listen to the heartbeat of God he can make you fly.  After I got up I felt so amazing. I felt love for everyone I saw and I could still feel the wings on my arms.  The feeling of love hasn't stopped since.  God has refreshed me like I had drank from the rivers of living water.

Slowly Movin

Getting one foot in front of the other isn't that hard.  I do it all the time.  Foot size 7-8 and favourite shoes chucks.  But what if you suddenly found that you couldn't do something this simple?  What is this you say?  Not able to walk?
I am not talking about the literal act of walking, I mean moving your life forward.  I am in the midst of a great stretching and shaping by God lately.  Heaps of crying involved therefore a lack of eye makeup.  I am growing and its exciting.  I wonder if a hot guy will notice?

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I sound like such a loser sometimes; looking back at my old blogs but I think when you are just venting your emotions that happens sometimes. I have discovered a love for the West Coast, particularly Raglan. Its wild waves, black sand, cafes and the amazing way I tan better and feel healthier so who wants to move. Granted the cost of living over there is high (I am staying in Hamilton while I find a cheapish place to rent) but its worth it for the way the place fits with me.

/Anyway I have a bit of a sore head but thought I would touch base.