I am not the only one to ponder the question of whether or not we are good enough. The question need not be specific but can encompass everything. There have definately been many times when I have not felt good for anything. There have been many times I have looked in the mirror and said to myself, "Why am I here? I am not good enough at anything and look at me who could love me?" If I am honest I would say that the times I did that I would start to pull myself apart by going through each part of me and saying what I hated crying and getting even more depressed. "Look at me. Who could love me? Look at that double chin, those weird freckles, the frizzy hair, the dark circles around my eyes, I may have studied hard but I am never going pass anyway. I am so useless and ugly whats the point?" Does this sound familiar? It is so easy to say those things to yourself and its just not true. What's worse is we can fall into the trap of only listening to the negative things people have to say about us and not the possitive. I know it can be difficult to not believe what are really just lies, especially if it comes from family or close friends. One area the negativity can manifest itself is through our weight, eating badly can be a 'punishment' for not feeling good enough, even if its not eating much at all its all the same.
Don't be deceived.
You aren't alone most of us are the same, it can take a long time to grab hold and pull yourself out of the self loathing. If we all walked around with a sign asking for we most wanted in our lives the sign would say LOVE ME <3
Love me the way I am. I know I am so imperfect but I do try. Love me please. I want to please you so much. When you look at me do I disgust you? Am I beautiful? Am I attractive? Do you want me?
The thing is we all carry around an invisible sign, we all need love. But you can't receive love until you learn to love yourself. TBC
Don't be deceived.
